Several years ago, I faithfully prayed to you. It happened
@ Trappist Monastery with my officemates. I asked your guidance for me to find a way out of a particular problem I was facing that time. In return, I promised to visit the monastery every month in one year. After a second, I received a text message. It was an answer to my prayer. It was not actually the solution but you delayed the process for me to find the way to solve it myself. I said to myself, "Wow naman! Ang lakas ng signal mo!" (I actually am talking how powerful the prayer especially with strong faith.) I fulfilled my promise to you. I visited the monastery every month in one year. In addition,
I stopped having a sexual affair with a friend-with-benefits. However, after 3 consecutive years I again committed mistakes. I knew, you keep reminding me every time I do wrong. I kept asking for forgiveness and several times I asked for a second chance. I admitted my faults without regrets. I have guilty factor instead. Temptation is always around. It is hard to be out of the dark space especially when you already mastered every corner. Yet, I reached the point that I am not happy in that situation or arrangement. I am not totally bad I know. There are good things I do too. But it is not enough to cover the whole part of me. As of now, I am still struggling but I try my very best to do the right things. I think all of these for a year. Now I am asking you for the last chance. You once showed to me and made me believe that you can hear prayers. Though, you don't directly give the solution. You always make a way.
Your birthday is near again. I hope you will grant my wish and guide me in the right path. To do only the right things and be a better person is actually a couple of priceless but worth gifts for you this year and onward. I love you faithfully. I am just stupid most of the time.
